Om Swami
How do I know if I am ready to surrender?
Surrender is tested in small orders
As long as you think you can override an order, you are not ready for surrender, because you are still using your mind. The solution given is to surrender to Lord Shri Hari and not to the speaker.
Till the time you think that you can supersede an order, you are not ready for surrender; it means you are still using your mind.