Premanand Maharaj Ji
Why do I find it so hard to speak the truth?
Truth is hard in Kali Kaal, and it is everyone's struggle
Speaking truth is highly auspicious but difficult, and this is a problem for all of us, not only you. We feel a lie will fix things quickly, and the Kali age (the present dark age) favours falsehood.
It is an effect of Kali Kaal: false taking, false giving, false meals, false snacks. This is its influence.